Grace Poured Out
It had been one of those weeks. You know, the week filled with appointments, social commitments, church things, and extra needy children. My husband told me to take a couple hours and go have some time alone. He usually sees the warning signs of me needing to go and recharge well before I do, and I’m forever grateful to him for it. There’s something so refreshing about going somewhere to write and pray without someone asking me to make them a snack, help them in the bathroom, or to find a lost toy.
I’m an extrovert and a people pleaser. I love surrounding myself with others and doing all the things, but there comes a point when I need to take some time for myself to process things, refresh my soul, and pray. So Jared sent me away to my favorite coffee shop(Amity), so I could have some quiet time and journal. This is my go-to spot when I need to think and write or prepare for an event. I do most of my best writing there. I ordered a pour over and sat down to start writing and praying. While I was praying I asked God what He wanted me to learn during this season. I wrote in my journal:
Give… Pour Out… Serve… Love… Empty… Fill…
Give myself to others, Pour out myself into their lives, Serve them and Love them, Empty myself doing His work so He can Fill me up again and again and again.
That was two years ago, during a season where it seemed like all my husband and I were doing was working, giving and pouring ourselves out. God was telling me to keep doing the exact thing that I felt like was draining me both physically and spiritually? I looked back in my journal and I realized He was showing me something that was there the whole time, but I just wasn’t seeing it. The word Fill. Everytime I felt like I couldn’t do any more or help someone in any other way, He somehow filled me with enough strength to do it. This changed my whole perspective. At first I could only see how I was emptying myself doing His work, but now can see how I was continually being filled with more of His grace.
Then I read Titus 3:4-7, which says “When the goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by his grace we might become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.” God graciously pours out His Holy Spirit on us. Without Him continually pouring His Spirit out on me, I would be weak and tired. I would feel empty. It’s God’s grace that’s being poured out on me every day.
Because of His pouring out I’m able to surround myself with people and look for ways to serve them and pour myself out to them. One of the ways God showed me I could do this was through writing. I’ve obviously ignored this for a long time, but I feel like it’s time now. I’m going to lay aside all my fears and put to rest the voices in my head that tell me I have nothing to share.
I’m excited to see where this journey takes me and how it changes and grows my spiritual life. I have complete faith that God is going to use my own words to help me understand Him better. If there’s something that resonates with you along the way, that’s great. My prayer is that you would be encouraged and you’ll find Grace Poured Out here.
Hi, I’m Hannah.
I am a lover of Jesus, wife, and mom to 3 kids. Occasionally I like to share things that are on my heart and you’ll find them here. Thanks for taking the time to check out my site!